I am officially, legally, back to Emily Jackson as of December 29th. It has been a bittersweet process but precious to be able to find myself again and remember how full life can be. I will also, officially, and legally be 30 years old this Friday! :) A lot of people keep asking me how I feel about this birthday coming up. They say, "Oh, I dreaded my 30th!"
My early 20's were like that feeling I had in highschool, maybe it was junior high, but anyways, the feeling you get when you put on your first pair of high heels. It doesn't feel right. You feel like you're not old enough or sophisticated enough to rock 'em with confidence. But you do, because you want to and it's exciting to feel like a woman, or at least try and act like one. I tried to act like a woman in my 20's. I did the college thing, I partied, I started a career, I got married, I acted out of my insecurities and selfishness, I got divorced.
Let's just say that over the last year or so, I have been able to rock a pair of stilettos with confidence and beauty (at least I hope so)! :) But I feel like a woman inside, whether I'm wearing heels or not. Don't get me wrong, I loved my 20's, but it's the 20's that are gonna make the 30's even better. I learned so much about being a woman, and not just pretending to be a woman, or slipping on a sexy pair of heels, but really what it means to be a woman of integrity, of love, of commitment, of value, of self-worth, of intrigue, of varied interests and goals...no matter what pair of shoes I slip into that morning.
So, in response to the inevitable question, "Emily, how do you feel about turning 30?" I'm so excited! and I'm excited for 31, 32, 33... I'm excited for the rest of my life! It really is true, life has always been, and will always be SWEET, no matter what age I am.
My early 20's were like that feeling I had in highschool, maybe it was junior high, but anyways, the feeling you get when you put on your first pair of high heels. It doesn't feel right. You feel like you're not old enough or sophisticated enough to rock 'em with confidence. But you do, because you want to and it's exciting to feel like a woman, or at least try and act like one. I tried to act like a woman in my 20's. I did the college thing, I partied, I started a career, I got married, I acted out of my insecurities and selfishness, I got divorced.
Let's just say that over the last year or so, I have been able to rock a pair of stilettos with confidence and beauty (at least I hope so)! :) But I feel like a woman inside, whether I'm wearing heels or not. Don't get me wrong, I loved my 20's, but it's the 20's that are gonna make the 30's even better. I learned so much about being a woman, and not just pretending to be a woman, or slipping on a sexy pair of heels, but really what it means to be a woman of integrity, of love, of commitment, of value, of self-worth, of intrigue, of varied interests and goals...no matter what pair of shoes I slip into that morning.
So, in response to the inevitable question, "Emily, how do you feel about turning 30?" I'm so excited! and I'm excited for 31, 32, 33... I'm excited for the rest of my life! It really is true, life has always been, and will always be SWEET, no matter what age I am.
